Construction Hat

𝗡𝗼𝘄 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴:
“St. James Infirmary – Louis Armstrong” ★
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ㅤ ㅤ◁ㅤ ❚❚ ㅤ▷ ㅤㅤ↻ ♡

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I say to him what I can’t say to you…

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Jun 9 16:07

Redacted?

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Jun 9 22:41

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Yo

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Yo?

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I aint your hb

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Well what are you

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Your man

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Honestly, doesn’t feel like it

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Elaborate

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Cuz I’m not the only one being

nonchalant

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I just don’t feel wanted by you like

i literally don’t know what to say.

We were on the phone like three days

after you came over to my place and I

told you, verbatim, that I don’t like

having sex and I rush into it because it

makes me feel like I matter to someone if

even for a split second. And now we’re

texting and the only time you express

wanting me is when we talk about sex.

So I feel like I have to be overly sexual

just to feel like you like me. When you

slid up on my story last week you didn’t

say “you’re pretty”, or “you’re beautiful”, you

said “clean up aisle my pants.” And I’ve

told you that I’m a very insecure person and

I can’t even look at myself in the mirrors most

days; you complained about me not wanting

to get on FaceTime right after I told you that,

but guess what Darius? You didn’t say anything

to help me feel better about myself, you

only said “you got nothing to feel insecure

about over here.” I understand that these are

things I have to work on myself and I

am but if you’re going to be “my man”

then act like it. I feel like I’m fighting for

scraps. I texted you “good morning beautiful”

the other day just hoping that you

would get the message that I want you

to flatter me. So yea, right now, it feels like

we’re friends. And I get that I need to

work on communicating better but I’ve

been so upfront with you from the

jump. You know I’m an open book.

Literally the first day you got my instagram

I was telling you about how my ex was

beating my ass. You know I have no problem

with speaking my mind. I feel like I shouldn’t

have to say things like I want to be reassured more

than once, because it’s either messaged received

and I’m gonna give this person what

they’re asking for, or

I just don’t give a fuck.

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For starters Redacted I’m

sorry for making you feel this

way…

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What he says doesn’t matter, I wish I could hear it from you.