About

This is a creative writing project in the shape of a blog. Or a blog in the shape of a creative writing project. Depends on the day.

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I started writing because my conscience works better on paper than it does in the moment.

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It features personal narratives about what it’s like to live with Borderline Personality Disorder, Histrionic Personality Disorder, and Complex PTSD — told by someone who has all three and isn’t interested in making them sound pretty or palatable. Some entries will make you laugh. Some will make you uncomfortable. Some will do both at the same time. That’s kind of the point.

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Every piece has a song at the top. Listen to it first or don’t — but it’s there for a reason.

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There’s no order. Start wherever. Each entry is its own world. You don’t need context from the last one to understand the next.

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I don’t always come out looking like the good guy in these. That’s intentional. Destigmatization doesn’t mean making mental illness look cute — it means showing the full picture, including the parts that make people flinch.

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I’m nineteen. I’m anonymous. And this is the most honest I’ve ever been.

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*This project contains discussions of self-harm, suicidal ideation, abuse, sexual trauma, substance use, disordered relationships, and psychiatric hospitalization. Please read with care.

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*This is purely a work of metafiction. The creator behind the keyboard maps the architecture of the experiment, while the narrator performs inside the files. They are two completely different entities. To learn more about the creator click "The Author."